Ok so I'm studying for this little thing called the HSC. I am oddly calm. I'm more stressed about this lack of worrying then I am about the exams ahead of me. I have my first one tomorrow for business studies so I'm doing a ridiculous amount of practice papers now. I can't figure out why I'm calm because I'm not confident at all. Maybe I burnt out... even though I never really did work in the first place.. This is awkward..

One of the many things that have distracted me: looking through old photos from summer, daydreaming about summer, thinking about going for a run so I look good for summer, looking at cossies on websites, thinking about fake tanning, considering patting my dog, maybe popping in to Mark's house..

WHAT THE FUCK I have HSC tomorrow..

William's Tattoo.

Eye of Horus: The right eye reflects solar, masculine, energy, reason and mathematics.

We're all ladies.

Before I left for this night my mum told me I looked like a lady.

If only she'd seen us by the end of the night. I almost fell into the pond. I mixed everybody's drinks. And I chucked a tantrum because someone said hi to me. By the end of the night I'd somehow made it back to my boyfriends house where I, classily, vomited into a bucket.

I will not drink again until the HSC is over.

PS. I managed to keep my lipstick on all night.. when I woke up it was as good as new.

PPS. Props to Lauren for looking hot while vomiting in her sink. Happy birthday homegirl.

BRB rebelling.

After HSC..
Hand tattoo:
Hair:

Lip tattoo:

Out of my hands.

I'm studying for HSC, but for some reason, the panic hasn't hit yet. Instead I'm here questioning everything I'm doing right now. I feel like I've been here before. I'm feeling empty; I need everyone to fill me up, to keep me from thinking too hard. Study is just part of a routine, so is hanging out with people. And then when I stop, times like now- sitting in bed, listening to my ipod; I feel so nostalgic for what we all used to be. Shit's changing now, I can't control it, and I hate it.

I'm drifting further away.