The Green Eyed Monster.

I went to the HSC music recital tonight. However, whilst watched I caught a severe case of jealousy. I wish I'd kept up one thing in my entire life. I can list numerous activities I've attempted; including singing, playing piano and clarinet, public speaking, soccer, dancing. But I'm still waiting to find one that sticks. When HSC is done, I'm going to find a hobby and stick to it.

Possible hobbies:

- Knitting

- Tea enthusiast

- Start making my own clothes (again.)

- Writing

- Start piano (again.)

- Photography

In the meantime, I've been considering career options, as one does during their final year of high school. I'm contemplating teaching; primary or english/ history, or floristry. I really really do like flowers.

We can be lost together.

You're a good listener.
I'm a good talker.
We're a good team.

Zzzzzzz.

I sleep too often. It's a proven fact. But sometimes I just lie in bed, not sleeping, just thinking. I think about things being different. Extremes. Like if I wasn't with you. If you weren't my family. If you weren't my friends. So many ifs and buts.



Sometimes I wonder if its normal to be this thoughtful..

Summer, hurry the fuck up!

I'm sitting out the back, studying the Cold War for modern history, sipping tea, and listening to new Angus and Julia Stone. I just want to be on Schoolies, up or down the coast, lying on a beach with my friends.

Even now though, I'm so peaceful and calm.

"The sun it burns so I'll jump right in, I felt the cold sea kiss my skin, I turned around and you were gone.. and I'm thinking of you."

I wish the pool was ready today.

Free.

I officially finish the HSC at 11.25am on Thursday, 28th October. Extension English will be my last exam. Cannot wait for such a moment in time to arrive. I crave being free from school and small minded people. I want to to go roadtripping. I want wide open spaces with fresh air. I want new people. I want a massive bonfire to burn all my books. I want no schedule, no rules.

Real life.

I lost my mind long ago, down that yellow brick road.